Monday Funday

  Well It has been quite the first week for me and my gym partner. Getting back on track for me and starting new for her. I feel like I might as well of been starting new, its hard but good and my muscle ache means progress is happening. I look forward to seeing how this week treats me. I know It takes time to get real amazing results but I want more now and I know that can't happen. Time and hard work will get me what I want and at the end it will feel incredible to achieve my ultimate goal. I want this so bad and junk food and booze is far from the things I want to taste. I love feeling light and not bloated cause we all know how being bloated can feel like your gonna give birth to a carb baby. I never want to feel that again, lol. I think doing the weights I'm doing and sets are doing enough to make me sweat and to give me enough freedom to come to the gym with my schedule, which is important cause I never wanna feel like I can't go to the gym or I won't go to the gym it takes too long. I want it to be enough to be sore and feel like I did things but not feel like I wanna die. My gym partner is doing an incredible job she has been a rock during all this and keeping me smiling. She makes me laugh everyday I work out with her. I look to my friends and idols progress and results to know it can happen with time. Anybody can do this, anyone can achieve if they want it bad enough. I want this, I will have this, it will be mine and I won't be stopped .

A Day Off Well Deserved.

   I has been a full week of gym and strict diet, I feel good but sore which is a sign of progress. I have worked hard this week and made steps in the right direction to my end goal. I feel I have found a middle ground of happiness taking Sundays off to recover from a long week. I love the way I feel a live after working out. Not consuming junk food and alcohol also have helped my bloating and energy level which is nice. I love waking up with out a hang over holding me back for the day. I feel as if I was meant to do this journey now cause drinking and junk food have become meh to me now. MY skin always looks more radiant when I'm on track which makes me like my self image a lot better. My husband is very attracted to me so that helps in this journey cause he always tells me how hot I am (perv) lol. I know the end will make this all worth while and I will feel as good as I look which I know will be amazing. One week done 11 more to go . I may allow a cheat at Christmas for a Christmas dinner and maybe a work party but will see how I feel that's still 5.5 weeks away till Christmas so I got time to think  it over. I train hard and this will be incredible at the end when I can see the results and fruits of my labor. I will succeed, I will stay true to the course and I will love my self every step of the way.

A Side Note un related to fitness

128 people have lost their lives in Paris by the hands of someone who didn't know any of their names,didn't even know they existed but they killed them any ways. How sad of world do we live in where people can have such hate in their hearts that they could take peoples lives at a blink of an eye. The world needs to stop the violence, share the differences and learn to love more , stop judging and be more accepting. Just stop the violence. Nothing is gained but more hate and pain. I mourn today for if we don't stop the violence and hate, humanity will be lost for good. Then all the good reasons for living will be meaningless.

No instant gratification

  Today I stared into the mirror feeling like all the hard work has yielded no results yet which is obviously because that isn't the way it works but I wanna see that reflection looking more sculpted then ever. I know it takes time and five days is certainly not enough time to have amazing results. I wish it would just melt off and I would be where I wanna be. I have to stay strong and stay true to the course cause it will pay off I will see the results. I know I'm strong enough and I know I am determined enough to make this happen. I want this so bad . So much more then bad food and booze. I can and will do this. I will shed off the layers of fat and be ripped. I need a pep talk from my self. I will conquer and destroy fat nothing will stop me. I will see what I want in the mirror I just have to give it time  

All pain hopefully gain

OMG was I sore this morning my legs and butt felt like I climbed mount Everest and I knew H.I.I.T was gonna be a real challenge but I did it 15 mins of hard cor 30/30 sets . I killed it and I knew it was gonna pay off. I am driven cause I want this so bad and I know I can look better then I do now. I feel self conscious about my weight and how I look so I have to succeed at this, I know I can't quit. My gym partner has been by my side all three days with out wavering even in the slightest. This makes me very excited and I love that I can share this journey with some one who truly understand the struggle. I love the support from my co workers and friends they allow me to vent and share my stories even when you know they don't really wanna hear it lol . I feel like have been doing very well, staying positive and only drinking tea and water like I promised myself. Twelve weeks from now I will be so lean. I know Christmas and my staff work party I may cheat we will see but other then that its smooth sailing for the next twelve  weeks no looking back. I love lean me better and its worth every H.I.I.T training session I do and every weight I lift cause the end results will be amazing. Next Monday I will take a picture and at the end of the month I will share them in sequence to see how far I have come in three weeks and I will do it from there, every four weeks till I hit 18 % bf. I'm stoked and I'm happy I can share this with the world.

No Pain No Gain

Well I certainly remember the feel of a hard work out and the next day pain that I feel through every muscle. I forgot how much my traps and lats hurt after a tough work out. I'm not gonna lie, I love my back and shoulder work out the best cause there is nothing sexier then a woman with a defined back and shoulders in a low cut top or tank top. I love the pain and the sweat it keeps me grounded and on the right path to my goal. I think in someways a gym partner gives me extra reason not to bail . and the more I work out the better I feel and the closer I am to hitting my target body percent of fat. I always lose water weight in the first day or two and its usually visually noticeable . I have cut out anything carbonated to reduce bloat which is the worst feeling. I have stuck to my diet to a tee no cheats, no wavering, it will be worth it, it will make a difference. I have stayed very positive and upbeat which help my drive. I also have kept on track with my water intake which is also amazing. I find that not talking about what I am missing while dieting and training and talking about what I'm gaining makes me sane and keeps me focused. They say it takes three weeks to lose the cravings for bad food which if I remember correctly is pretty accurate . I am proud of my self and my confessions on this blog help keep me going so I thank everyone who reads this cause you are helping me in my journey.

First day back at the gym.

Wow it is crazy how much one person can sweat. I love the feeling that pulses through me when I'm lifting weights. It feels good to feel the sweat and aches in every inch of my body. I stacked my two day worth of work outs into one day and did straight up cardio to ease back into the every day gym routine. I'm proud of myself I drank water and fueled my self right setting my self up for success. I feel good and rested and will feel better after a week of this cause once I'm training for a week or two I can't stop the momentum . I went to the gym with my girl friend who is gonna join me in my journey so we will see how thing keep going. we are champions, we will do this. I so excited for the road ahead.